Sunday, July 02, 2006
You'll be in my heart
Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
'Cause you'll be in my hear
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep in side us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know
When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Believe me, you'll be in my heart
I'll be there from this day on
Now and forever more
Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Always
I'll be with you
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there
AlwaysThe Song i sang 4 baby 2 put her 2 sleep or when she started her non-stop shrills..Its been 16hours since she left me..I misses her alot..Every minute i kept thinking of her..*If only i knew it wiould happen , I would prevented it from happening..
*If Only=2 words when someone cant accept e reality..
Yes!I cant accept that Baby's Dead..It never crossed my mind..Ytd Baby acted differently..Her pitches getting louder thou i soothed her she wont stop her shrill..I ignored it as i think it was normal..Sadly..I was wrong..And i paid the price..The worst part she died NOT in my arms But beside me..
As usual when i woke up , I stroked and gave her a kiss..I realised that she was not moving..Suddenly i started crying and screaming..
"bABy bangun!!"Baby dah mati"Asal dier mati?!"Nie sumer salah akak!"
Everything was a blurred..I cant concentrate..Tears kept streaming down lyke a waterfall..
I never ever felt so lost and Alone..My family was insensitive and they expect me 2 move on in juz a few mins!I was appalled..They even suggested i threw Baby in the chute..It was depressing..My parents had been objecting for keeping Baby bcoz she was juz a kitten and has yet 2 open her eyes..I knew they were concerned as we already have 2 grown-up cats.. It was all my Lil sis fault..She was the one who picked the stray up..And i was the one who was took care of her!My sis only knew 2 play wif Baby..I've become a surrogate mother who took care every of her needs..I missed stroking her . patted her . washed her wif cotoon wool soaked in warm water and put her 2 sleep..Most of all..I missed Hugging Baby , 2 feel her fur on my face..
If onle i had send her 2 SPCA..The death would be avoidable..Bcoz of my procrastination..I had 2 bear the conseqeunces and I'm now in pain..Call 2 SPCA in the morning the day b4 Yesterday..
Mie:Hello..Gd Morning..I need some advice,my sis found a kitten who's eyes had not open?I checked the internet..(Describe e procedure)Am i doing it right?
SPCA:Yes u are..
Mie:Ive made som plans 2 send it 2 U..Can i take it back in a few weeks tyme when she grows..
SPCA:I'm sorry once u send 2 SPAC..It's ou property therefore u had 2 consider as if the Kitten cant make it..We will have 2 let it go..I hope u understand..
Mie:(Hearts Pounding)Uhh..Yeah..I will think it over..Thanks..
SPCA:U welcome..have a nice day..
I don wanna part with Baby as i've been taking care of her since 5 days ago..The bond i had with her..I loved Baby soo much..BUT *If only i had send her 2 SPCA..At least she would be alive and kicking , growing up 2 a healthy cat..
Not BE dead!I'm guilty..I was the one who caused her death..I've 2 blame myself..Now..I'm trying 2 stand again..Thou my heartache..This is e 1st tyme a death fall upon me..I have 2 stay strong..Death is in the hand of Allah..Everything that happen has a reason..I thought i had dried up my tears from all the crying..But as i laid on my bed Hugging to Baby's Comforter(My old t-shirt),her mini milk bottle and syringe..Two large tears rolled down my cheek..And i knew that i still yet 2 get over her..Allah..Please give me strength 2 live my life..Dont haunt me with Guilty..Locked every memories of Us deep inside the back of my mind..I just want 2 have some peace..
Jannah ♥
11:26 PM
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